Christmas being one of the most amazing times of the year, filled with love and happiness, seems to have taken a different turn this year.
Not that we lack love or happiness, but I have gained a feeling of loneliness and sadness.
The people I love the most seem to be sitting through a tough time, being part of this isn't easy.
I cherish them in every way possible, but I see my level of happiness falling down, slowly.
I have a continuous ache in my stomach that doesn't seem to want to leave me alone.
An ache that resembles feeling nervous, but then continuously, and not being able to enjoy moments that are full of fun.
I had the most amazing christmas meal today, but it didn't feel right.
My body doesn't feel right, and I am not sure of what to do.
I feel powerless, and like I am losing this fight.
I hope I am wrong, because I know it'll tear me apart from my head all the way down to my toes.
Please don't let me lose, please don't forget, just let us be who we are, and do what we do best when we're together.
You know it's the right choice.
x.
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