Usually this works to everyones utmost advantage, but today I have decided to try and put my feelings inside a box, preferably with a massive chain wrapped around it.
I have become incapable of controlling certain feelings, and therefore letting them run wild whilst I helplessly chase after them, in the hope to gather them again and lock them up somewhere far far away.
But I honestly don't know what to feel at this particular hour of the night.
I feel like the strongest emotion I have felt in the past two years is actually slowly drifting away from me.
And tempting me into a different direction, one which gives me more freedom and might return part of me that I have missed for a while.
It's hard to say, and it's hard to word.
But I hope that my metaphorical language does somehow portray a message that mirrors my story.
I basically don't know what to do with myself.
And would much rather be alone right now, not in a physical way but more my mental state. Not having to continuously share my time with someone who probably won't mean as much to me in the future.
Please let me stow away my feelings.
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