where did the now go?

Sitting, waiting, wishing for my future to take a turn for the better.
I am living in the future, rather than the now.
Waiting for an email response telling me that I have been accepted for an internship which will only take place in September.
Am I being silly?
I am not sure..
But I think most part of my answer would be "yes you are"
I know that what I am doing now has a huge impact on what I do when I am all "grown up"
But when I am all done studying, I'll be at the young age of 22.
So, I will always have a lt of time to correct whatever mistakes I make now, right?
Anyways, I still find myself sitting here wondering what I will be doing in the latter part of this year.
I am hoping to go on an amazing adventure to Australia, where I can hopefully attempt at wowing them with my work, but also gain experience for myself.
Find out what I truly think of the lifestyle down-under, but also to get out of the Western world, and truly experience being by myself, isolated from my bubble of amazing people.
Pack everything into one large suitcase and see where this will all take me.
I mean, in the end I could also be making a short trip of two hours to London to take on the same kind of adventure.
But my ultimate dream is on the other side of the world, and I have set myself this goal and I hope I will manage to achieve it, starting the new year fresh. And having a slightly different outlook on life.
I want to pursue my dreams. I want people to see that I do have something to offer, and I may not be as amazing as the people that surround me at school, but I have a passion for culture that not many have. And I can write in a way that no one else.
And I hope that this can be enough for them to take me on, and give me a chance.
I just want to be given a chance, so that I can get a taster for my future.
And yes, I suppose I am caught up in the future.
And now I have managed to answer my own nagging question.
Yes.
x.